On the outside, you might think I’m a guy who’s probably better off on his own without the company of people. That’s what people think because of my resting bitch face coupled with an introverted nature. Truth is, however, I’m not. I look forward to meeting new people and making new friends but I see myself as socially inept in social situations. I know the steps in establishing friendships but I ultimately fail to execute in practice.
It also doesn’t help that I believe I have Social Anxiety which means that I tend to be anxious whenever I am placed in social situations. I always fear that I am going to make mistakes in my interactions with people so I tend to be extremely self-conscious, stiff and uptight. I also fear that people are going to be turned off by my extremely shy personality and my default facial expression which is why I often end up withdrawing into my shell.
Because of this, I have a lot of acquaintances but very few friends which sometimes bothers me especially when I’m on social media and I see different kinds of posts that show my friends bonding with each other. It pains me a little knowing that I could have been included in those photos but I know there’s really not much that I can do to make things lively and less serious. As an introvert, I tend to listen more and offer solutions to people’s problems instead of opening up about my personal life and its drama.
Here in my blog, you will see the other half of this introverted guy. The part where his personal life and problems are exposed. As I’ve said before, I don’t open up about my life but the fact that I can be anonymous brings me comfort. Besides, I also look forward to meeting people here who can relate to what I’m going through. Perhaps we can all help each other out as we get to know more about each other.