Scattered Pieces

These are the words I held back


On the outside, you might think I’m a guy who’s probably better off on his own without the company of people. That’s what people think because of my resting bitch face coupled with an introverted nature. Truth is, however, I’m not. I look forward to meeting new people and making new friends but I see myself as socially inept in social situations. I know the steps in establishing friendships but I ultimately fail to execute in practice.

It also doesn’t help that I believe I have Social Anxiety which means that I tend to be anxious whenever I am placed in social situations. I always fear that I am going to make mistakes in my interactions with people so I tend to be extremely self-conscious, stiff and uptight. I also fear that people are going to be turned off by my extremely shy personality and my default facial expression which is why I often end up withdrawing into my shell.

Because of this, I have a lot of acquaintances but very few friends which sometimes bothers me especially when I’m on social media and I see different kinds of posts that show my friends bonding with each other. It pains me a little knowing that I could have been included in those photos but I know there’s really not much that I can do to make things lively and less serious. As an introvert, I tend to listen more and offer solutions to people’s problems instead of opening up about my personal life and its drama.

Here in my blog, you will see the other half of this introverted guy. The part where his personal life and problems are exposed. As I’ve said before, I don’t open up about my life but the fact that I can be anonymous brings me comfort. Besides, I also look forward to meeting people here who can relate to what I’m going through. Perhaps we can all help each other out as we get to know more about each other.



  1. ktwritings

    I truly get you, when it comes to listening to other people’s life problems. Like you I did start up this blog to anonymously share my personal opinions, glad to have that common with you!
    Also I would be honored if you would do a guest post for my blog, for further info read my latest post
    Let me know what you think 🙂


  2. Hi there! Thought I’d come by for a visit and thank you for following the coffee bean brain. I’m glad to know and follow another fellow introvert and I just want to commend you for being brave in having a voice about your thoughts. I’ve struggled with my over thinking mind since I was a kid and it’s only now that I’m beginning to have the confidence to let my voice out, only none of those who know me in real life have an idea about my blog. I intend to let it stay that way but it would be okay if someone finds out.
    I just want to let you know it’s okay to embrace your introversion and know that it is your personality that makes you. It can be pretty hard being still in school where we are all being pushed to become our best extroverted self but if what makes you feel happy is being quiet and embracing the solitude, don’t change that just to make others happy. 🙂

    Drop me a line if you have time or want to talk. I’d be happy to here from you. 🙂

    • Thank you! I’ve learned how to embrace my personality over the years. It’s just that I’m in this organization and I feel that I need to get out of my shell in order to maximize the whole experience since I would be needing it as a boost to my applications for med school next year 😦

      • I appreciate you sharing this. I’ve read your concern on the other post. It’s good to know and accept yourself as that is the most important. Take it one step at a time and don’t force yourself if you feel there are some things you’d rather not do. You don’t have to please anybody. Those who will eventually see your determination will also see past the facade. 🙂

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